November 2023
One of my teacher's principle teachings has been running through my mind on repeat ever since a conversation I had with a friend last week. “Do what you need to do until you know what you need to know.” We were talking about being in a space in life where we just don't know what comes next, and being unfamiliar with that feeling. So often in life I feel like we’re expected to have a plan, to know what to do next and anticipate our next move. However, when dealing with big change, whether it be grief, a shift in life perspective or simply at an impasse in life, we can find ourselves not fully able to jump so quickly to “what's next.” It is indeed a societal norm to always be moving, always be one step ahead—always have the plan set before moving forward. I myself have functioned this way for much of my life. I have found over the last few years, becoming this new person, mother, business owner, mild introvert, that the unknown is actually the only known thing for me right now. And if I spend my time trying to figure out too much of what is next, I end up in a perpetual loop of disappointment or even shame of not being able to know what I am supposed to be by now, or where I am supposed to go (I know sounds ridiculous right?!) So leaning into my teacher's words has been so helpful. When up against the unknown, just keep doing what I need to do until I know what I need to know. Keep resting when my body needs rest. Playing when my heart needs to play. Paying the bills when the bills need to be paid. And as I move through these things I know inspiration and wisdom comes where they need to. So my offering this month, although a bit late on the calendar, is not only to do what you need to do until you know what you need to know, but to give yourself grace as you do so. You do not have to have everything figured out. You do not need to have all your plans set. Give grace to the unfolding of your experiences and be open to what follows. Gratitude and love for you all always,